so many people look so good. look so goody 2 shoes. they seem nice, good, seem like they are faithful, worship, like perfect people. but their not. if i don't put on that fake smile every week, every day, people ask questions... "are you alright?" that is so... well, obviously maybe i am not?? and besides, do you seriously think ill tell you what is wrong? who are you kidding..




everyday, i tell myself that if i just do this, do that, everything will get better, but it does not. so much so that i have given up..



oh.. this is so ironical. i hate a lot of people's blogs. all full of crap, all full of things like, what they want, what they do. so materialistic. even though i cannot believe that i am blogging. i do think that way. oh i hate this. why do i have to think so much..


why can't life just pass me by smoothly.


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